I can only get better & stronger after being insulted and looked down by others.
As i read through my past msn conversations chat with my friends, i found out that,
throughout this whole 2009, I hasn't really been able to be more mature.
All this while, i have always been smiling, make others laugh by doing some silly actions. Making other feel annoyed by irritating them all the time.
I never really cherished what i had.
I wasn't able to identify a predator within my range of friends.
I treat my enemy as my friends.
Im indeed a failure.
I let him take away someone important in my heart ..
Shattered, the only word to describe my present situation.
Often, i build myself up & fly around in circles.
I know that i am childish.
I promise you all, that i shall change.
I shall prove those volleyballer who look down on me, wrong.

hihi.
hehe,wake up at 7 :D
Went out at 7.35am ~.~
Almost every morning also like this.
No life ):
Wore my red jersey today.
Training was quite okay lah.
hehe,bought newspaper, confiscated by coach.
He say during training cannot read newspaper.
After training, went for lunch.
Play basketball.
'HAPPY HOUR'
sibei nice ~
But it stink. kok siang buy the chou chou de 'happy hour'
homed at 5.

Wawa, coach give free jersey today.
Got number 6, red . !
YAYAYA.
tOMORROW gonna be a boring day.
Sighs. byebye.

Coach say , must sleep for 8hour to grow tall.
I sleep for 5hour only, on average.
Friendly match with Ang mo kio & Fairfield today.
Slept at 1am last night
wake up at 6am.
Called cj, then showered and set off ~.
Meet howwei & Cj follow by kok siang.
Reach fairfield at 7.52am.
Watched amk vs fairfield.
Nice ~
Soon, shuqun went up for match.
During the third set with amk,
I gong gong, crush my knee pad and my right knee to the ground.
Super duper painful ~.~
After 20second, i tobaleh than,
Subsitute lor
Took off my knee pad, lots lots of blood there.
I think can fill up 1/4 of a 500ml water bottle sia. [I am sarcastic ]
Watch them play ):
While i stand there. ):
Now, walk with one limp.
BAI KA.
Went to shuqun see someone.
hehes, she say cannot obvious, so, i try lor.
Just found out, some of the cgirls are very very childish. -.-
Byebye.

Slept at 1am ++ last night.
Was busy drawing the volleyball formation thingy.
Coach said 10min can draw finish -.-
I draw from 10pm to 1 am. _I_
Mummy woke me up in the morning,
She said, [ still early leh, want sleep more?]
Then i checked my phone, 7.14am. -.-
Then i retorted back, [early your head lah]. -.-zzz
Wash up, prepared,reach my bus stop with a donut and cheese bun on my hand (:
Howwei say the donut look like sex toy.hehes.
Bought the Ebene Bio Ray knee guard the day before yesterday.
It says what, improve your blood circulation?
Then ran 20 rounds of basketball court.
AFTER RUNNING, leg like on FIRE.
Could hardly walk -.-
But i still continued with my training.
Did fitness, play match with stephen, 2 vs 6.
We won, like, of course ^^
Fall out, went for lunch,
then went to cj's house to watch movies.
Homed at around 6++ ^^

Say it.
Empathize.
Love unconditionally.
Expect nothing in return.
Realize it can be lost.
Never stop loving.
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Ok, let me start my rubbish post here.
Woke up at 10.09am?
hehes, watched some dumb but hilarious shows.
Dardar wasn't free for the whole day till after 6 for today ):
Went out with naomi & mummy.
Went to bugis, like AGAIN -.-
Met clement and had dinner together.
Train-ed home with mummy,
as Naomi went off to meet her BF._.
Bye.Thankyou for reading. :D

Went for training till 12.30pm
Slacked till 4++
Homed at 5+
Tired to the max
There's a BIG hole around my knee :O
Currently super happy with my ♥ Life. :]
Byebye. :]

Hihi (: Just came back :]
Woke up,prepared, set off to meet howwei ,
Then we went to jurong east to meet michelle
Follow by kok siang,
went safra for Lan with michelle & howwei
While kok siang & delong and friends played pool.
Kept kaciao-ing michelle.
Her bears are annoying ! hehes
bid goodbye to michelle.
then go bugis with kok siang & howwei
Bought alot of things.
They both keep wanting to see the sex toys shop -.-
Im so not interested .
Ate durians with them :D
Bought a very very nice lighter.
And a case + a wristband.

ok, end here. Bye.

I hate sunday !
Going to Malaysia for volleyball competition during the December
Gonna train real hard for it :D
&& im gonna write out what i had been keeping in my heart.
For you..
I know its too late to say anything now.
All i know is,i was in the wrong.
There's no point being upset for something
which happened in the past.
I only wanted to let you have a taste of your own medicine.
I didn't know what was i or maybe,who was i ?
I fake it all out.
I act it.
I once said, Hold your horses.
Be patient. Wait for her.
I promise her & myself.
But did i wait for her ?
I ain't suitable with my new cup of tea.
I just.. Regret.
I know its too late for me to say anything now.
And for those of you who understand what im writing,
Keep Mum.& for those who dont, dont comment or ask.
Thanks.